Now wait a minute.
Let’s pause. Let’s breath.
Let’s try to live in the moment. That’s it. Breath in. Breath out.
Now. WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT ALL ABOUT?
Here’s the thing. I had a dream last night. A dream about her, about her sleeping right beside me, again, in my very own bed. And it was …odd. About us chatting, about her smile. And about how fucked up my mind is right now.
But wait! it doesn’t end there. I *woke up* in the dream, AND I WAS FREAKING OUT. In the dream about the dream I just had. And then I woke up, not knowing what the fuck was going on, really. Who the fuck is playing tricks with my mind? I mean seriously, I’ve got a lot going on for someone to fuck my mind up like that.
You know what the worst part is? I woke up sleeping on one side of the bed, instead of the fucking middle where usually sleep when I’m alone, my mind was fucked up enough to leave a space for her to sleep, A NONEXISTENT BODY. Which according to my mind (or more accurately, my dream) was there. How fucked up is that?
I haven’t seen her in over a year, and I know for a fact she’s doing okay, phone calls are enough for me to know that.
But seriously, why the fuck, WHAT THE FUCK.
Either I’m not drinking enough or I’m not drinking the right stuff.
Jesus H. Christ.
Why me.
Tags: 2009, craziness, dreams, Link, Rants, wtf
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